I need to get this off my chest. I have serious wedding anxiety. More and more every day I wish we had just eloped. I am really looking forward to my wedding, but when I think about all that I need to do it makes me feel like hyperventilating.
This isn’t helped by the fact that in the past 2 weeks I have told 2 people that I don’t have a dress yet and they responded with serious shock. Like the “What do you mean you don’t have a dress!?!?” Kind of shock. Thanks guys I have been spread a little thin because I am still working full time. Haven’t lost my job and devoted my life to blogging. And I don’t work at home. Also, did I mention that I am in grad school full time?
I feel bad when people talk about the bonding they did with their mother over their wedding. My mother and I haven’t spoken in 3 years, and I don’t want to speak to her. I will invite her to the wedding, but no, i’m not asking her for input on what flowers to buy. And I cried during Bride Wars because all of my bridesmaids live in different time zones. None live in mine, so I don’t have anyone to go search for chargers and candy buffet jars with. It sucks. And I’m feeling bad asking people to travel in this economy. And then I feel bad when they say they might not make it. It’s incredibly selfish, but if I went to your wedding, don’t you have an obligation to come to mine?
Ill get over it when I find a dress. If I ever do.