I am just so tired.
I am working at this new job- this fabulous new job, but I am writing all the curriculum that I use. Most people who write curriculum get paid big bucks to sit in an office all day, and never see the inside of a classroom. I get paid like at teacher, and still teach like a teacher. But I have to make up everything that I teach.
That means all lesson plans, unit plans, handouts, homework sheets, every minute of every day I do all on my own. It’s just…………so………..much. And there is a first year teacher who is only teaching from a standardized curriculum who keeps complaining- he has everything laid out for him! Everything! When to breathe.
I need to breathe.
It just makes me want to cry. I don’t know why, I just feel so overwhelmed right now. I know I can do this, but there is just too much on my plate.
1. The wedding
2, This new job
3. Back to Grad school starting this week.
Don’t get me wrong, if I was at my old job, I would be stressed in a worse way, this feeling of helplessness and anger, at least here I know I can do what I need to do, it just seems like an enormous task. I need to count my blessings that I am starting here now, when I am still relatively young and don’t have that much to do outside of work (no family, etc).
I think I need more sleep. I was going to take just Thurs/Fri off before the wedding, but lately I am leaning towards 3 days before and 3 after.
I would love some supportive words of encouragement. Thanks Blogosphere.